Some Days

Some Days

Some days, even when they’re supposed to be special, wonderful days, something awful happens and breaks your heart.  Today was one of those days for Joey and I.

It was one of those days where I was so thankful that I was married to my best friend:

Joey.

He watched the monitor with me and held my hand as we both realized that there was nothing alive to see anymore.  He held my hand and rubbed my back as I struggled not to cry.  And, once I lost it and did start crying, he gently dabbed my tears with tissues.  He paid attention when the nurse explained what I needed to be watching for.  When we were given important information, he took command of the situation immediately, got the necessary phone numbers and made the requisite phone calls so that I wouldn’t have to.  He took me home and put me to bed and held me while I cried.

That’s selfless love.  That’s my husband.

Today was horrible.  Awful.  I never, ever, ever want to do today over again.  But at least Joey was holding my hand the entire time.  And I’m so thankful that when I look at Joey, I see Jesus.

That’s a good reminder on our fourth anniversary.

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About jennawoestman

Joey is my best friend. We welcomed our miracle baby, Analie Alexa on November 23, 2010. She was 7 lbs of cuteness and we are so thankful for her. We lost our first baby (who we symbolically named Samuel) the summer of 2009. I love being a Christian, even when it's hard. I've tried IVF. Twice. It worked. Once. That's how we got Analie. I'm always willing to talk about infertility. Diagnosis: Stage 4 Endometriosis (plus a few other bonus things) I'm live in Indiana. I enjoy reading and going for walks in the evening. I get my news from NPR. Someday I want to be a guest on Wait, Wait, Don't Tell Me. I love backpacking, hiking, canoeing and survival camping. I'm a big fan of weekends. My bike's name is Thunder. I'm a youth pastor's wife. I dig cows. I don't handle stress well. I'm not good at fishing; I talk too much. Cooking and baking are my favorite. I love hanging out with my girlfriends! I'm a budding environmentalista. I love me my Joey. Texas is where we "came of age". I enjoy seeing animals and want my very own Alpaca. And Koala. And Panda. Conservation is beautiful. I'm a neat freak. I like all-natural, chemical-free, environmentally-friendly products. Green is my favorite color. Still.

9 Responses »

  1. I wish I could give you a hug.

    Take care of yourself.

  2. Oh, Jenna…I’m so sorry…but, I’m so happy that God has given you such comfort in your husband. I’m also thankful for your ability to see through the tears and sadness and know there are blessings beyond. I’m praying for you RIGHT NOW. ♥

  3. Ditto these other ladies. And even in this, you see the goodness of God.

  4. I don’t know if you realize how special you are and what an inspiration you are to me. Thank you for your words. I’m praying for you both. *hugs*

  5. Dear Jenna and Joey,
    I am so sorry you had to go through yesterday and even more sorry that I couldn’t be there to help. It is an awful feeling to know your children are in pain and even worse to not be there for them. Please know that you are both in my thoughts and prayers. We are grieving with you and have shed our own tears. I wish I could give you both a big hug. Please hug each other for me.
    Love you both
    Mom

  6. Praying for you both!!

  7. I am so sorry Jenna. You are truly blessed to have one another and to feel that perfect comfort within each other. The kind that is rare and the kind that helps ease some of the pain faced in this life. I send you a piece of my heart and know that you and Joey are in my prayers as if this very moment.

  8. Jenna (and Joey) – I am so sorry for your loss. There is little to say that is actually comforting right now…know that your grief is valid and take care of each other as best you can. i know you will. our prayers are with you. -charlsa&kevin

  9. Jenna,
    I’ve been there; it’s horrible. I’m so sorry. My older two daughters were at Kim Larson’s house when I got the news. She hugged me as one who knew pain and grace and the future with both. You and Joey are blessings to those who know you; may you feel blessed by all of them right now. Love you, Kelly

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