So, I took it last night.  I didn’t hyperventilate, I didn’t cry, nor did I throw it against the mirror.  I just popped it out of the blister pack, stuck it in my mouth, took a deep breath and swallowed.

Then I waited for about five minutes.

Everything seemed normal, I hadn’t personally imploded or anything, so I found Joey and told him that I thought maybe I’d be OK.

He was asleep.

So I fell asleep and dreamed really weird dreams, which I blame on the medicine.  Unfortunately I can’t remember any of them any more.

But this morning, I feel pretty good.  I don’t think I’m prone to tear anyone’s head off, nor did I gain 25 lbs while I slept, and I haven’t had any fits of crying.  Maybe birth control won’t kill me after all.  (Although statistically, 7 women out of 100,000 perish from it every year.)

I did wake up with the song Arise and Be Comforted in my head, though.  I really like it right now; it somehow encourages me and reminds me that YES…Jesus loves me; even when I look at my Bible and can’t for the life of me remember where it tells me so.

I looked for it on YouTube and I could only find it being performed by some weirdos I’ve never heard of and who, frankly, aren’t any good. So the lyrics are all y’all are going to get.  Gosh, it’s just not the same without music, though.  (If I could sing like the Chrisy Nockels, I’d never even bother with talking.  I’d just sing everything instead.)

Arise & Be Comforted (by Watermark)

Arise and be comforted
For the Lord, He is good to the weary;
And even the young heart can tire and fall
But He knows them all.
For the Lord, He will renew their strength
And they will soar on wings as eagles,
And they will run and never grow weary
They will walk and not grow faint.
For the Lord, He is good,
Lift your eyes to the heavens
For the creator is living in you;
Come surrender as you are.

And know that you’ll never stray too far
Let His power within you heal your heart.
Lift your eyes to spacious skies
Let Him chart your way to flight
Spread your wings and fly…
For the Lord, He is good.