Psalm 86:15-17

But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,

Slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.

Turn to me and have mercy on me;

grant your strength to your servant

and save the son of your maidservant.

Give me a sign of your goodness,

that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,

for you, O Lord, have helped and comforted me.

It’s no secret that sometimes I get overwhelmed by it all.  That I can’t understand why, why, why this is happening to me.  That when I see irresponsible mothers with miserable-looking children I just want to scream HOW IS THIS FAIR?!  Why do they get to have all these children and screw them up when all I want is a baby to nurture?

And then there’s the paradox:

The same God who created me fearfully and wonderfully…gave me a reproductive system that cannot function properly.

The same God who miraculously allowed us to get pregnant naturally once…took our miracle baby away.

The same God who provided us the way to try IVF…may allow it to fail.

The Lord gives and the Lord takes away.  Somehow I have to figure out how to understand the “blessed be the name of the Lord” part of that verse, just in case he takes away again.  Sometimes I wonder what we’ll look like on the other side of all of this.  I feel like we’re too young and immature to be slugging through this stuff, ya know?

Maybe everyone in this valley feels that way, though.

That’s why I find comfort the Psalms.  And that’s why I love the song Arise And Be Comforted.   Neither one’s trying to tell me JENNA!  It’ll be GREAT!  Don’t WORRY!

They both face the fact that life gets hard. Seriously?  David (the Psalmist) did not have it easy when he wrote many of his Psalms.

Even the young at heart tire and fall…but He knows them all.

(Click the “play” button below to listen to the song.)