I think IVF stress is going to ruin my brain. Either that or memory loss and idiocy is a side effect of my medicine: I’m forgetting absolutely everything lately, I’m bad at responding to emails, I can’t figure out my new cell phone. AND SO ON.
Yesterday and the day before I felt pretty good. Today I am absolutely dragging.
This could have more to do with the fact that I had a really weird and very long dream about being Hitler’s secretary. Hitler was really mean in my dream, so I kept trying to find ways to blow him up but he kept foiling my plans by being screaming, “Jenna I need you to get over here right now!!” at me, and then I’d have to go stand by him. Which, of course, was always right where I had set my bomb to go off. Obviously I was not going to blow myself up.
So after an entire night, pretty much, of trying to kill Hitler, let’s just say I did not feel refreshed when the alarm went off.
In fact I felt so un-refreshed that I got back in bed after drinking my coffee, and I fell asleep. Which made us late.
That’s the secondary reason why I am having a Pepsi today. The clock is ticking, y’all. Once I start shooting myself up every day I can’t have caffeine anymore. I guess caffeine and ovary simulation meds are not a good combination. (I just really creeped myself out by thinking about that, so now I’m shaking my head really hard to jiggle the mental picture away. Whew. It’s gone, but now I have a headache.)
I have until November 21st to caffeinate myself. I will totally rise to the challenge/occasion.
At least you were trying to stop Hitler, even if he wouldn’t let you.
Enjoy your caffeine.