I can feel it growing back.
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW DISGUSTING THAT IS?!
About two months ago, I felt a twinge on the right side of my tummy. It was the first twinge I had felt in awhile, and it was kind of comforting and reassuring; I felt like I was welcoming back an old acquaintance I hadn’t really liked but had gotten used to having around.
My first thought was that I had indigestion. Then I realized no, no that’s not indigestion, that’s the feeling of all my old Endometriosis growing back.
Yaaaaaaaaaaaay for Jenna!
I can tell you exactly where it is, too, which is even creepier to me. Like before I just thought it was indigestion, and would you please pass the Midol and a 2 pound Symphony bar? Now I can tell you that my lower back hurts, hurts, HURTS because it’s got furry overgrowth on it that doesn’t belong.
So I busted out the Googlebox and pulled up the Interwebs and started doing some research. Then I got out my Handbook for Natural Healing and discovered it had a huge section on Endo, so I read all of it.
I discovered that Endo can be curbed by following a very precise, regimented diet and taking supplements to soften and loosen fritzy tissue growth. The problem is, the precise diet limits the following:
red meat, wheat, bread, flour, cakes, most soy products, sugar, honey, alcohol, caffeine, chocolate and dairy products (which are an inflammatory – who knew?)
Not an exhaustive list, but it’s exhaustive enough for me. I can think of about………..three of the things on that list (soy, honey, alcohol) that I can easily eliminate without rocking the dietary boat…but seriously? If I cooked like that, Joey would up and revolt.
REVOLT, I TELL YOU.
On Saturday, I took the supplement list from my Handbook to the health food store and got several of the important supplements for tissue softening and healing.
Now I just have to decide how important curbing the re-growth of this junk is. (Aside: Whenever I think of how my insides look all decorated with Endo, I imagine I look like that floofy green seaweed, the kind that just wobbles around gracefully in the ocean currents but feels DISGUSTING if you step in it.) Is it important enough to basically give up my hobby? The only thing I’m good at is making food. I love finding and trying new recipes that Joey and others will really enjoy.
Could I still make those for other people and not eat them myself?
GAH.
Another thing I found out in my research is that Endo is likely to cause more health problems down the road, like auto-immune issues, Chronic Fatigue, Fibro and suchlike. None of those sound appealing to me.
Are cupcakes worth it?
Do I need to start liking black beans?
UGH.
And so now you understand the title.
Because I can’t decide if this is priorities as a statement, or priorities? as a question.
Maybe I should start by cutting one of the no-nos out of my diet at a time…maybe?
Or maybe I just don’t even care.
